Training, sudden loss, and trusting God's provision

Worship and Prayer Intensive Training

In November, we had a powerful two-week intensive training with Julia from One-Eleven Global and a team from YWAM Impact PH. The first week was dedicated solely to the CHOP staff, focusing on our "Sun" , and that is worship and prayer together. One of the key exercises was to sing the Bible, whether it was a phrase or creating a chorus. Since singing doesn’t come naturally to me, it was initially challenging, but I discovered my strength in it. I was able to encourage others who didn't consider themselves singers to join in, and it was truly amazing to see everyone participating.

Afterward, we hosted a two-day Youth Conference/Workshop with 30 attendees. It was a blessing to share what we’ve been learning and equip others for their journey. We were grateful to have Julia, the House of Prayer team from YWAM Impact, and those amazing volunteers join us. Their support was invaluable, and it was a joy to work alongside them.

This training reignited my vision of seeing a community connect intimately with Jesus through worship and prayer. I long to see forerunners rise—people who recognize Jesus' worth and wholeheartedly commit to worshiping and praying. I am also excited to witness more houses of prayer emerging.

(I am handling CHOP's social media and other media/tech related stuff. I mostly work behind the scene.)

Loss

A month prior to the OneEleven Training, I experienced a sudden and heartbreaking loss. My uncle, someone who meant so much to me, passed away. I received the news that he was in the ICU, and despite the heaviness, I chose to pray and hold onto hope, believing for his recovery. I booked a flight to Tagum, hoping to get there in time. But just a day before my flight, I learned that he had passed away. The grief hit hard, and the guilt of not being there in time was overwhelming. I deeply wish I could have been by his side during his final moments.

It’s been an incredibly difficult loss, but I’m doing my best to trust that he’s now in a better place. The pain remains, and it’s not easy to carry, but I take comfort in knowing I’m not walking through this alone. He's not just an amazing uncle, but also my major supporter and financial partner in ministry, someone who truly understood my calling and always believed in the work I’m doing. This has been a significant challenge, but it’s teaching me to lean fully on God for provision in this season. I believe He knows exactly what I need, and I’m trusting Him more than ever to guide and provide.

In times of unexpected loss and hardship, I’ve learned that grief, while painful, doesn’t have to be walked through alone. Even when things don’t go as planned, and I’m faced with overwhelming feelings of guilt or regret, I’ve found comfort in trusting that God is with me every step of the way, and I'm also thankful with the people around me. God is faithful in guiding me through the hardest moments, and His presence brings peace when everything feels uncertain.

Philippians 4:19, "And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."

This season has taught me the importance of fully leaning on God, especially when I feel the weight of uncertainty. I’ve come to realize that even when things seem to be taken away, God remains faithful, providing in ways I can’t always predict. I’m learning to trust Him more than ever, knowing He sees my needs and will always provide at the right time.